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chikababoomz [December 2nd, 2009 / 11:54am] [ mood | grateful ] ben oh left for dunowhere yesterday! he gave me a retarded phone call which was quite heartwarming except that it was retarded ha and oh ya A's are over hmm life goes on (unexcited face) i went to the library ten million years ago and borrowed a lot of get fuzzy books! i like satchel pooch a lot even if nobody does and i want my own satchel pooch to house, without a bucky because he's just plain destructive and awful! save for the times he's nice to satchel ok i dont think anyone CARES haha...i do. i went for training yesterday~*~*~*~ i had the worst bout of cramps & a tooquick heart rate and today i'm just achey everywhere just like ssk said i'd be no actually she said i'd be dead but i'm quite alive today is wfl & michgwee day! nowadays i have trouble reading the clock i think my brain is degenerating ttm (tea slows down r8 of degeneration though..and i drink tea like some crazy dog) sunday is sentosa day i TOLD hinyang it'd rain but he doesn't believe me actually i don't believe me either because so far my weather forecasts are all not working : ( finally got my fumplings! TY clr for the best fumplings now GIMME AND samuel chin just told me that during our bike hike night my bike was on low gear the entire time!!!!! no wonder i was so laggy behind and huff puff, enduring disdainful looks from unhelpful people... i have gone through unspeakable unfairness I wait for the Lord, my soul waits & in his word i put my hope --psalm 130:6 will wrench myself out of this...running everywhere/wanting everything because there are things worth waiting for & yet there isn't anything specific that i'm having in mind just a general feeling i have of being discontented+bored/nostalgic. haix so yarp. i think nowadays i have a freaking problem with talking properly/expressing myself...i wish we still lived in the age of silence. 6 read cmnt

this is not a complaint [November 18th, 2009 / 8:42pm] [ mood | relieved ] [ music | city&colour ] ok i'm alive (partly) but i think i sprained my writing wrist hand(no joke) -- courtesy of awkward sleeping position last night exacerbated by lit & today's econ (synonymous with big nuclear bomb/chikababoom) and am currently way too freaking lazy to touch anything and barely remembering that there's econs again! this friday. so yeaaaaa longdrawn sigh incredibly thankful for friends+ happy birthday zara: just like cheryl said quote celebration part II comes only after A's unquote so hang in there (hanging hanging) and happy birthday november ppl (read: gary bx) in other words (yaHHH i mean in other words) god has been vry gd vry kind vry comforting and it's in moments like these i cannot spot any qualms about chillaxing with him forever. am trying not to be worryful just... contemplative i hope + ok yea fine worryful. ok i digress i just meant to say in nights of trembling and fear (only semi kidding) "do not fear i am with you, do not be dismayed for i am your god" and the peace which transcends all understanding has more than lifted my soul/rescued my incredibly miserable fate ...good kind of longdrawn sigh + have spotted a longtime trend: everytime i feel good/convicted about something..warfare ensues. haix no weapon formed against me shall remain phwoarrrr and eehui and i have created a mighty list of things to do after A's her number one goal is nail polish pls refrain from criticism this period is very depriving etc etc and hongliang is going to be miserable on the 25th when we drag him around to attain all our no.1 goals (there are many no.1 goals) power on peoples (this word will never fail to remind me of eehui) on another note claire has escape the dark side! jealous sigh this is called the bright side. i miss my vivitar 3 read cmnt

a levels is really unenvironmentally friendly:( [November 8th, 2009 / 10:06am] [ mood | lazy ] Do not be anxious about anything but in anything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which, transcends all understanding, will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.  so yea chillax:( 2 read cmnt

i can't do anything [November 2nd, 2009 / 10:19pm] [ mood | intimidated ] but you can :(  ugh spirit of anxiety get behind me phwoar fierce face but quakey heart 2 read cmnt

and would you want to see/if seeing meant that you: [October 30th, 2009 / 10:50pm] [ mood | stressed ] sometimes there is not enough space in my room for me. there are too many sometimes in my words/thoughts nowadays, i attribute it to the brilliance of cheryl chia @ her v sometimes best. just trying to make my way home::::::((((((( do not like this very much at all and (end!) headegg head8 headache  thank god for rainy/non scorchy days or i wouldnt have eaten btp meesiam in a mil years 4 read cmnt

dry my eyes and keep on walking till the motion makes me strong [October 25th, 2009 / 8:24pm] [ mood | uncomfortable ] if i even bothered remotely about things you're telling people i'd try but oh wellz life goes on and on and on and on hinyang's holding a yacht party and everybody is invited cheers a levels is like o levels but worse by a lot. ("punctuate please") 4 read cmnt

spazzy dance [September 29th, 2009 / 9:04pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | emmy the gr8 ] i guess typing in pointform = more coherent oh well prelims are (finally) over after a crazy long month it's been the longest month and the shortest year of my life umm i watched the ugly truth today! it was quite funny cheryl was laughing nonstop the entire time even when the entire theatre was silent and she is really extremely commentful:~) tolerating kind face. umm then we headed over to nick's after unsuccessful shopping took out a mahjong table................... and played bridge -.- and drums and piano etc his house is like a freaking jamming studio! that is very booms cos of all the construction work. i ironed a lot of clothes today(!) and aw and emmy the gr8 is so clever... i couldn't sleep last night till about 2+ i'm going for accupuncture today my body is v skrwed up nowadays i need to bathe i think i shouldn't blog when i'm tired because i'm so grumpy and i don't even really want to talk to people i think i have a few things going on at the same time on sunday but i can't remember what they are i should get down settle down i've been trying and sometimes i succeed and forget about it but sometimes i just need to learn the spazzy dance and everything will be okay life is actually very simple & who cares about making sense   yawn bye 1 read cmnt

hey hey [September 7th, 2009 / 1:09am] [ mood | lazy ] i'm alive i'm alive as usual everything is coming to an end and starting all over again all together. i'm still undecided and unprepared and excited and not at the same time. successfully kept off mac for a looonngg time until of late when celeste began watching gossip girl (ykylm) then i started playing typing maniac. today silver_hbo kept laughing me about tim who btw doesn't even exist, and i want to be all of that/everytime you say something is this the way i will always live?the more i see the less i know the more i'd like to let it go (wow@ liam hoekstra btw he's going to grow up to be xmen) rrrgh i don't know what the point of this is sometimes i am gatsby(as in jay gatz) somedays i am david (as in the psalmist) most days i am just waiting; people are always leaving/ life goes on without you and the world still turns when you're not around - i've been stupid the question is again & again and again: who are you doing this for? oh great god be small enough to hear me now 1 read cmnt

her name was either mia... or MIA! [July 12th, 2009 / 1:24am] [ mood | okay ] [ music | emmy the gr8- MIA ] i went for Emmy the gr8 with Emi the ungr8 last night <3  i love Emmy the gr8 she is really ultra cool.. then emi & i unleashed our inner unhappiness @ the river where apparently "people always drown in" (quote unquote emi). Oh before that was mahjong @ aug's house hehe yunfeng (hereafter known as ACE BTW THAT IS HIS NEW NAME RESPECT IT ACKNOWLEDGE IT!!!!!!!!!) keeps saying i owe him 80 cents but i don't :@:@:@ and from thompson home is really a killer journey i h8ed every second of it INCLUSIVE of the long jams etc!!! then baked butter pecan cookies today except i couldn't find pecans @ cold storage this morning so i just replaced it with hazel nuts. haha i think i have a very low level of hygiene especially in the kitchen i pity everyone who ate my cookies (i didn't)/ i think i would get a D by hawker standards (ha ha but too bad i'm not a hawker) cos i keep dropping everything and my kitchen is complete disaster 101 right after i finish..flour is pretty dangerous. overslept after my extremely tiring baking session and was late(!!!) for service errrrr met up with the cross people after that <3hehe<3 played pool!!! longyi was my longtime partner and we only lost one game wahaha but our all games super long cos we suck like duno what ahaha then i teamed up with weijie who disregarded consequences (wakaka) i shot 2 winning balls! one actually not counted but because i'm such a noob they ignored the rules for me. 65 took forever to come i was talking non stop at the bus stop until gary got very bored/fedup with me haha no wonder he was so happy when his bus came : ::::: (((((   and he keeps imitating my voice just because i asked him if it was high-pitched wah lao never hear cheryl's one before zzz zzz ok i am finally tired ahh 2amtomorning(@lj.com)        good night good bye good morning picnic with emi tomorrow! i go oredi bye bye 0 read cmnt

my name is inigo montoya & you killed my father/prepare to die(!!!) [July 7th, 2009 / 9:29am] [ mood | amused ] ahahahahah he has really cool eyes! like changing colours eg his passport says they're blue but they look pretty green to me >:~) aw i can't w8 to see him and i don't even usually like babies <: ) i mean i'm ok with them just not crazy over them + i keep accidentally calling them it which i'm sure doesn't really offend anybody but i feel very ultra stupid after that. sighzzzzzzzz the past few days have zoomed past if i took arts i would have had a five day holiday too :~( but no i am facing chem/death tmr 7 read cmnt

awesome in this place [June 29th, 2009 / 7:32pm] [ mood | thankful ] how do you do it???????making the bad things so so good??????? 0 read cmnt

[June 29th, 2009 / 2:00pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | mad world- adam lambert ] GP is over!!1  haha holiday already wakaka okay i haven't posted sort of in a really long while it feels like<<<<< what a weird sentence but anyway i had a really good birthday thanks everybody who asked AND WHO I DIDNT REPLY HAHA OOPS but i replied everybody's hpybdy msgs using my sec 2 nokia phone that is like !$%^&* and i lost a lot of my numbers so be obliging can.. the past few days have been so packed (!!!) (state of alarm) no time to breathe but incredibly thankful all the same :~) celeste came over @ 11pm haha crazy girl :D then we watched exorcism of emily rose until i fell asleep y3y brave people haha we were scared that the movie would end at 3am which was the demonic witching hour (according to the show not to me la) and we paved a way so we could run back to my room at 240++ and settle into bed ha what stupid idiots ^^ then woke up to bake my traditional brownie cake which i think everybody is sick of eating anyway HA ESPECIALLY ME the smell of it makes me want to throw up but still it's the only thing i know how to bake properly:( then met emelyne+ssk (sam sam koh in case ppl forgets..) and peishi the fatty! haha emelyne was so cute she tied balloons to the chairs... then we walked around and took neoprints lol lol lolzzz // sec 2 days sigh michgwee are you reading this??????? errr transported myself to celeste's house and did duno what while she entertained herself & g... then met semi psg at ps where woon lue led us on a wild goose chase and still tried to trick me with her juice buying trick wahaha i am astute ^^ fish & co blah blah photos on fb i uploaded it the other day alr but it screwed up lucky me get to upload it all over again phwoar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh then i came home to find sam and peishi squatting in my toilet i almost had a heart attack (like MJ RIP BTW wow what a sentence of shortforms i nvr fail to amaze myself) and they stayed over!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay for sleepovers and my dad's back from hospital + my mom's back from affected area*~*~*~*~*~/UK  yay for double parents too. so yup thanks evaribodi u r all gd ppl and accumulating gd karma everyday of your lives zz shaddap la which reminds me today i settled scores with leslie haha and i asked him to search his conscience and after gp p1 he said he's going to fail it because of me... what a guilt tripper/liar!!!! i don't want to talk about my papers already anyway it's over +++  my room is very very very messy aireoeurhowuehr i have an unspeakable fear of entering it cos it gives me a headache :~~( i wish it would magically clear up itself.. lastly, emi keeps telling me it's very hazy over at her house (bukit batok) but it's so clear at pasir panjang! everybody should migr8 to pasir panjang... but then it would be anti environmentalist because we should stay in communities of no more than 20, 000 people and only communicate via communication systems...stupid watson.  k k k k econs tomorrow bye friends/world mad world hahaha shaddap la. celeste is a blackie   & i am v lucky he he<3 + i am not as small as i look >:@ dont offend 4 read cmnt

24/7 [June 22nd, 2009 / 10:41am] [ mood | calm ] [ music | fantastic 6! ] okay i haven't blogged a proper post in a while so here i am chirpy... (and mildy irritating haha smuggy) i irritated ben oh and hongliang yesterday at west coast plaza before i sped home with ssk (sam sam koh ahha it's her email name!!!wakaka). i don't know what i'm up to !#$%^&* the day before yesterday my father was addressing my brother and i about eating animals  (eg chickens ducks) but for some reason he thought it was ok to eat fish although he really feels strongly for otherwise - i didn't really know he was such an animal-person. i went out with my father again yesterday and completely forgot about eating animals and ordered chicken porridge to his dismay haha ugh i think he likes chickens the most/feels the most sorry for them. IF I STAY AT HOME ANY LONGER I'M GOING TO FALL ASLEEP, I JUST KNOW IT. 0 read cmnt

unstoppable(!) [June 15th, 2009 / 10:50pm] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | with or without you ] to finish it off / / / / / / / / / / / ouch 0 read cmnt

where is your moral compass [June 11th, 2009 / 11:10pm] [ mood | busy ] [ music | the world spins madly on ] this is my favourite mood such that even when i'm not busy i like to put this mood ha ha hm i watched drag me to hell with cheryl & ben oh today wkk it wasn't too bad/scary and it was quite funny at times but the ending was a bit zzzz plus cheryl shouted it out already ("i talk to the movie but i talk at you") nothing much then ben oh and i hung around for hongliang's big day haha i hope it went well!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i gave him a lot of my good luck ya ya ya ya i feel like skipping econs tomorrow. "you can only face the sadness of being forgotten in the comfort of being remembered" - - - yeah ok ugh i helped to bake a chocolate cake yesterday + - + - + - + - i realise i don't really know what to say i just feel like typing type typettity type type i keep thinking i'm going to meet people these hols eg cy mg le but no i don't and my hols are passing by in a flash zoom zoom zoom my muscles ache from timetrial haha unfit 0 read cmnt

my mom is damn funny hahahahah [June 10th, 2009 / 11:01pm] [ mood | amused ] "[your aunty] said that you are a good girl, she called you few times, you were at the library but who knows whether you are really  studying or not? hahah ." hahahahahah i miss everybody not in singapore :~) :~( 2 read cmnt

i bring my own sunshine :~( [June 7th, 2009 / 12:35am] [ mood | anti-social ] SATS are super duper ultra long i didn't utilise my 5 min toilet breaks because i was busy observing people around me and eating uncle toby's (ha primary 2 days) met michelle gwee with her funny tanline hahahahahaha she is such a dark horse now. i'm feeling anti social haha hinyang says i'm in his boat but i am not! i tried to think of something witty seeing how he is a canoeist and all but my anti social and unwitty nature has once again failed me i am not progressive in life at all and dreading sleep of late.. and waking up (just the process) met zara and tommy, sort of... languished around. i like teadot! i like tea very much in fact i think i would frequent teadot more often if it weren't so expensive. tea slows down the degeneration of your brain wakaka celeste is demon sweet eater i'm tired again..... i don't know why i'm so easily tired of late (not really physically more like in every other way of school and blocks up and coming !#$&) and looking back on all my other posts which are...happier?!?! or just more exclamation marks ok generally more excited - i wonder if i've always been tired and just hyping things up or if it's only now. i like to be excited. i'd like to be excited. a lot of things to think about especially today rrr things are actually not that complicated but owuefowuehfouhefheavyheartouefhouw "i am not a  pen i am not a pen i am not a pen repeat after me i am not a pen..." "you are a pen you are a pen" haha zara was so irritated by me. and ben oh and i are planning rebellion plan A... see life is actually simple:( 6 read cmnt

familiar [June 3rd, 2009 / 12:09am] [ mood | full ] I Am A Rock Paul Simon A winter's day- in a deep and dark December I am alone- Gazing from my window to the streets below On a freshly fallen silent shroud of snow. I am a rock, I am an island. I've built walls, A fortress deep and mity That none may penetrate I have no need of friendship friendship causes pain It's laughter and loving I disdain I am a rock, I am an island Don't talk of love but I've heard the word before It's sleeping in my memory I won't disturb the slumber of the feelings that have died If I never loved I never would have cried I am a rock, I am an island I have my books and my poetry to protect me I am shielded in my armour Hiding in my room, safe within my womb, I touch no one and no one touches me. I am a rock, I am an island And a rock feels no pain, and an island never cries. 5 read cmnt

twenty four seven [May 31st, 2009 / 5:27pm] [ mood | exanimate ] [ music | better than this ] happy birthday peishi!!!!!! damn uncooperative surprise birthday participant gross photos another day the yf initiated bike hike!!!!!!!!!! was quite fun and painful eg my neck and my butt omg it feels ultra sore but shijun says it's all in the mind...  we only cycled 65km until 6am though vs gary?!?!? 125km zzzzzzzzzzzzzz but we went to old changi general hospital which was very interesting. and we took the never-ending road to changi village where we had a feast and i drank coke to keep alive because i was the most dead among the 5 of us (shijun yunfeng augustine samuel me memememememememe). i felt very happy on the roads because i felt like i was a real car stopping at traffic lights etc ^^ and the weather in the morning IS VERY NICE vs the gross horrible weather nowadays i want to watch the princess bride (which is not chick lit :~() "hello my name is inigo montaya and you killed my father prepare to die" oh on friday we had durian night @ geylang i h8 durians now ugh i don't really want to go but my moral compass.....................................is making me uncomfortable. either way i'm out of my comfort zone already zZzZz??? and lastly..........i want to be every bit as real as you are.   4 read cmnt

[May 26th, 2009 / 11:36pm] [ mood | thankful ] taste & see that the Lord is good :~) 4 read cmnt

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